Pass few days Emily came over for a few night stay, memorable and loving memories she left on after she went back home with her parents. She learned a number of English word like Stop, Good Morning & Please. One day went by and she's already been using those words she learned while talking and playing with us.

Children see and learn on what they see among their friends and family, this is what my little Emily did. My bro called her name out loud from my room and she answered : " Ha! " Maybe she have been observing on how my family answer each other when someone call and that is how she learn to answer that way, way cute :)

We see and learn on the things we see no matter good or bad.

If a mother bangs the door because of her frustration so does the children will follow.

If a father never treats his family good neither the children will in the future.

If a brother selfishly does not want to share his things with his siblings so does his siblings.

If a sister always complain about her sister, what goes around comes around.

The beginning of a life comes from the family on how a good/bad life style will be rooted to the next generation. Down the road if you sees your children acting the way you dislike, turn around and see what you've done in the past.

I'm smart, you ain't

Some are born smart, talented, pretty/handsome, tall, fair and rich.
Some are just the opposite while some only the half of it.

If you are smart and you know it, teach and share to the ones that might need your help, don't just keep it to yourself and feel proud of yourself by knowing the answer and letting your friend in the depth of sinking. He might not be smart as you but he ain't stupid either, just slow.

Lending a hand adds a smile on a person face.

-----Pauline----

You, They, Them, NoNo, Me

What I saw in the world Me and You are living in is this, people blame people on the wrongs that happened to themselves and said I shouldn't have trusted you in the first place, I should have done it on my own instead. However, when a splendid result shows, they fight to stand out and claims the credit which might not belong to him/her and boast about it.

If you feel that the people around treats you differently and nothing that you do seems progressing, maybe you should stop pause and think why, instead on blaming others of what is going on. You might have said this : " Why are you treating me this way? " to your friends but stop pause and think how are you treating you friends, they might have been treating you how the way you've treat them, what goes around comes around. Maybe you haven't, maybe you have been treating like your friends as if they are your BBF-4-Life yet result isn't what you've expected, they still treat you differently. What you are gonna do? Just ignore the situation and supress your feeling? Of course, NO! You can make a choice, it's in your hand, to make it better or not.

You chose to work in Cat company. Few months later, you found out that you can't get along with the boss neither the worker so you blame them for the inefficiency of yours and quit the job. But stop pause and think, why can't you get along with the boss or the workers, it is because you were too proud to listen and to learn or you just don't listen?

Went into a shopping mall and get the cloth that you find attracting and found out few hours later at home that it wasn't what you expect and you started blaming the advertisement, the sales girl who persuaded you to buy or the attracting prices. Stop pause and think, you could have think twice before purchasing it and not only following your feelings.

You are on your way to work and traffic was slow, you started blaming the people on why couldn't they come out earlier or later, you blamed the traffic light for changing so slow or maybe you blamed your stupid alarm clock that rang so softly. Stop pause and think, you could have come out earlier before traffic struck by that you can avoid the traffic and maybe you can even have some time for a light breakfast. Ah, the stupid alarm clock. You could have change it to another one since it is not working properly anymore or maybe since technology are so high tech now that we can't live without our hand phone that coincidentally it has the function of a alarm clock, wow, we can use it as a alarm clock and set time early to wake up so that we won't get late to work, right?

Everything happens because of what we chose. We chose to wake up late thus getting our self stuck in the traffic. We chose to keep secret from others so people keep secret away from us. We chose not to say thank you when we receive anything so we won't be receiving any thank you from others too.

So, do you still think that life isn't fair or it is because you were not acting fairly to others? We've been given the privilege to choose left or right, right or wrong and what we choose will do and affect us in the future. If you choose to blame fate, you are blaming God, He is the one planned everything and everything, why blame God when the decision was made by you? Yes, God controls everything, He knows what you are gonna do and so but He gave us the free will to do so, He lets us to think and to CHOOSE.

God gave us the ability to think and to decide on what we want and how we want to get it, some use it wisely but lots used it foolishly yet blaming on why unfortunate things happened to them. It is our choice to decide which path that we want to live and walk in, now we are living in what decision we had made in the past. There is no one to blame but our self.

It's your choice to make a different or not.

----Pauline-----

Believe it

A friend asked a me a question today

: " Pauline, why have you changed tremendously after form2 ? "

It all started during my first year in Huge Camp organized by Youth Alive Malaysia in year 2005. I was still a young, immature and wild little young teenager who's hair was a lil weird a that time when I went to Huge Camp with my BFF - Joyce Tan.


During the period of the 4days 3 nights camp, I experienced God tremendously throughout the whole camp, all I was expecting each next day was just to feel God more. I tried explaining this part to the friend who posted me the question but she was reluctant to know more about Christianity so, I did not go much further. Everything has their own time so why push, just go with the flow. Not forgetting that was the first time being in a camp where the Holy Spirit could move mightily and anything could happen.

During one of the night worship session, God touched my heart and awaken me from the inside of how bad I was acting for the past 2years, tears flow out from my eyes and realization took place. I regretted of all the things that I've done and I saw how badly I was in treating my friends and it this bad treatment of mine even extended to my family members. Name the bad things - fly school, saying coarse words, showing fingers and fight etc all was in me. But after the camp, I saw major improvement in my behavior and attitude, my eyes were widen up and saw things from a different perspective, not only me, myself and I saw the changes in me others did too and from that day onward I've found a new life to go on. I've became more thoughtful of the things around me and became even more sensitive to everything but there is still imperfection in me and of course it does apply to everyone.

Some came to me and said
: " What happened to you? Why are you acting so weird? You're so nice. "

I replied
: " God changed me into who I am right now. :

One by one friends who I've mixed it with in form1 & 2 got distant with me and I got closer to the bunch of good-nice students in school. Starting was awkward but God has His way to make things done as He put me in that situation, He never forsake me when I started making new friends in school.

After 5years, here I am now.
Am I still the same?
Well, you tell me :D

-----Pauline-----

True or otherwise

What you see is not actually what you see but what if that you see is actually what you are seeing?

A friend once told me that we can't judge a person by their look but what if we can, what if that person really does do thing sincerely and truthfully however one could never predict what the outcome will be.

Long time ago I realized that I'm a person that could easily trust and believe another even though the time that we spend together is short and maybe because of this reason I got hurt a lot of time by friends whereas they do not even know they did.

I love to be around with my friends. I like talking to others and knowing what they're thinking and would love to share EVERYTHING to all about me but somehow, now, I would stop and think twice whether I want to or not.

Beginning was all great and fun where joy and sharing filled the air and laughter filled the stomach however as time pass by, people started gathering here and there talking with that look on the face that makes one wonder what is going on, questions filled the brain and mouth started asking, sadly that one did not predict what was coming ahead, he/she was asked to shut up, oh dear, what a heart break incident that had just happen.

I've experienced many of these incidents before and know what it felt to be hurt like that by friend that you thought it's your friend and would share the world with you, well, they are still your friend but just not the type of friend that would share things with you.

There are many types of friend - Best-est friend, Good friend, Normal friend and friend.
So where do you think you stand in your friend's heart?

Best-est Friend would share everything with you.
Best-est Friend will scold you of your silly things and would tell you off when you are wrong and will be there whenever you need them and will never keep a secret.

Good Friend will share almost everything but not everything with.
Will scold you of your silly things and would tell you off when you are wrong and will be there whenever you need them. And not to forget keeping secret from you cause you are not totally his/her Best friend.

Normal Friend where secret are told selectively and would back stab when you are not around and act like nothing in front of you. These are the ones that everyone should be aware of. But yet, they will treat you well.

A friend, well, just a normal Hi & Bye.

However, when two strangers got to know each other is a blessing. You might find out his/her ugly side one day but who doesn't have that ugly side? You might be fated to get along and help one another to be better. Iisn't it why human have brains for? To solve and not to create issue.

Why in this whole wide world, you got to the person that is sitting next beside you and not others? Why him? Why her ? There must a reason for everything that has happened, some chose to endure with joy while some not.

If there is a 24hours in a day then there is 1440minutes in a day, how would you like to live your day? By treating others good and doing something special or just living a normal life that everyone does? Will you live your day joyfully or rather full with rants? Your choice, my choice.

Friendship is something unique.

-----Pauline-----

Turning point

Never thought of locking my old and faithful companion - dustbinrubbish blog until now.

You see, I've found out that life is more than ranting and talking nonsense about all day long, life is colorful and are painted with different types of colors if you take a look into every aspect and not particularly on one side.

Why stay on the dark side when you can enjoy life on the brighter side?

Started a brand new blog to only write down what I feel best for you and me and not only just about my normal life style and what activities I've joined recently or so, there might be some but it won't be entirely mention out.

My old blog will be private and if you still want to visit my old blog you could leave your email add to me and I will add yours :D

----- Pauline -----